I can
make up all the excuses that I want, but the true reason for my absence during
the last six months is very simple… life. We are all born to live before you
die. It is up to you to decide how you want fill the 'life' part. I choose to do
all that I can in the time that I have on earth. Throughout this process, I have
forgotten to take some 'me-time' these last months and I am trying to take some
time to do this now.
I haven't
been writing a lot lately. I can tell that I really miss it. The pages in my
diary have been blank and the uploads on this blog has been nonexistent for
several months. The reason why I love to write is because it is a way for me to
clear my thoughts… for myself and for others. I know that I can be very opinionated
and I am not afraid to speak my mind. In the heat of the moment, I can be pretty
straightforward and not everybody can handle this. This is why I try to
'release' my opinion on (digital) paper.
The
other thing about me is that I can talk A LOT without saying much. People will
say that I am very social, but truth of the matter is that not many people get
to know me. I choose not to share my utter most personal thoughts, because my
mind is overactive and complicated. I don't understand my own thoughts, so how
can others? People always try to be kind and give advice, which is kind, but I
rather not have it. This is why I've mastered my communication skills and I can
literally talk for hours about everything and nothing without mentioning any
detail about myself.
Writing
this just made me realise how schizophrenic I am. I'm writing down how I don't
share personal stuff that often as I'm sharing personal thoughts at this
moment. My whole blog is about sharing my thoughts... I'm weird I know.
I think
it is time for me to put this post to an end. I know that it doesn't make any
sense, but writing this nonsense post has given me the 'me-time' that I really
needed.
I'll try
to make more sense next time... and next time will be soon hopefully!
Love,
b-n
