I can make up all the excuses that I want, but the true reason for my absence during the last six months is very simple… life. We are all born to live before you die. It is up to you to decide how you want fill the 'life' part. I choose to do all that I can in the time that I have on earth. Throughout this process, I have forgotten to take some 'me-time' these last months and I am trying to take some time to do this now.
I haven't been writing a lot lately. I can tell that I really miss it. The pages in my diary have been blank and the uploads on this blog has been nonexistent for several months. The reason why I love to write is because it is a way for me to clear my thoughts… for myself and for others. I know that I can be very opinionated and I am not afraid to speak my mind. In the heat of the moment, I can be pretty straightforward and not everybody can handle this. This is why I try to 'release' my opinion on (digital) paper.
The other thing about me is that I can talk A LOT without saying much. People will say that I am very social, but truth of the matter is that not many people get to know me. I choose not to share my utter most personal thoughts, because my mind is overactive and complicated. I don't understand my own thoughts, so how can others? People always try to be kind and give advice, which is kind, but I rather not have it. This is why I've mastered my communication skills and I can literally talk for hours about everything and nothing without mentioning any detail about myself.
Writing this just made me realise how schizophrenic I am. I'm writing down how I don't share personal stuff that often as I'm sharing personal thoughts at this moment. My whole blog is about sharing my thoughts... I'm weird I know.
I think it is time for me to put this post to an end. I know that it doesn't make any sense, but writing this nonsense post has given me the 'me-time' that I really needed.
I'll try to make more sense next time... and next time will be soon hopefully!