What the mind knows is not always how the heart feels

You go through life with ups and downs. We tend to linger on the downside of life quite often even when we know it’s the happy moments that we should treasure. Our mind knows all this, but somehow our heart works differently. What the mind knows is not always how the heart feels...

My dedicated volunteers

I've posted a blog about volunteers before. A couple of days ago one of my volunteers at work said that he had seen my website and I promised to write a blog about him and the other volunteers. This is me keeping my promise...

Longing for September

August is not my favourite month to say the least. It reminds me of things that I rather not be reminded of. As September is right around the corner, I'm seriously dreading this coming week.

Please stop trying to set me up people!

I don’t know why it is that people have the need to set me up. Apparently I need to be in a relationship to be happy (according to these people). Truth to be told, I’m pretty content with life at the moment. I seriously don’t mind being single. I’ve got so much going on in my life that I don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything.

Forgive me

Forgive me

It’s been almost three years since I’ve seen you

A freaking nightmare that came true

Still can’t believe that you’ve been taken away

All because of a stupid decision that I made that day

I understand why God wants you so near

But now I´m here on earth with all this fear

People tell me that it was just meant to be

But all I want is for you to forgive me

I know life is not in my control

Nevertheless, I´m left with a mourning soul

My mind knows the truth and what is real

But that´s not what my aching heart says or how I feel

I really really want you to know

That I´m so so sorry that I made you go

I still can´t believe that you had to die

Now I´m left here on earth to cry

Still waiting on God to explain to me why

I never had the chance to say goodbye

Or why He wants you instead of me

I need these answers to set me free

All the tears that I shed at night

Simply proves that what happened is not right

I´m waiting for that flood of rain

To come and wash away my pain

If you could look inside my heart

You would see how it´s torn apart

I need you to be able to forgive

This is what I need to continue to live

Let’s just hope that this grieve will be worthwhile

For one day we´ll get reunited and I get to see you smile

Don´t know when this day will come

Just know that it will be freaking awesome

Have a blast in heaven up above

Know that I´m sending you all my love

You´re so so missed down here

But in my heart is where I keep you near!

Dinner with colleagues

I hosted a dinner for my colleagues today. I’m having the house for myself, because my sister is on a holiday for two weeks. I’ve been thinking to organize a get-together for a while now and when I asked around they seem to be up for it as well.