Forgive me

Forgive me

It’s been almost three years since I’ve seen you

A freaking nightmare that came true

Still can’t believe that you’ve been taken away

All because of a stupid decision that I made that day

I understand why God wants you so near

But now I´m here on earth with all this fear

People tell me that it was just meant to be

But all I want is for you to forgive me

I know life is not in my control

Nevertheless, I´m left with a mourning soul

My mind knows the truth and what is real

But that´s not what my aching heart says or how I feel

I really really want you to know

That I´m so so sorry that I made you go

I still can´t believe that you had to die

Now I´m left here on earth to cry

Still waiting on God to explain to me why

I never had the chance to say goodbye

Or why He wants you instead of me

I need these answers to set me free

All the tears that I shed at night

Simply proves that what happened is not right

I´m waiting for that flood of rain

To come and wash away my pain

If you could look inside my heart

You would see how it´s torn apart

I need you to be able to forgive

This is what I need to continue to live

Let’s just hope that this grieve will be worthwhile

For one day we´ll get reunited and I get to see you smile

Don´t know when this day will come

Just know that it will be freaking awesome

Have a blast in heaven up above

Know that I´m sending you all my love

You´re so so missed down here

But in my heart is where I keep you near!