I’ve made it perfectly clear that I want tomorrow to pass by, since it is a day like any other day. People around me don’t seem to get it though. I know what I want and especially what I don’t want. Why can’t people just let me be?!?!?
I’ve explained my ‘life plan’ in a previous blog post. Tomorrow is the deadline of the plan that I’ve once set out for myself. Life didn’t work out as I wanted it to be, obviously. I’m not sad about not being married or not having children… my life took another turn and although it’s nothing that I imagined it to be, I have been blessed with a lot of things that I didn’t and couldn’t anticipated.
This is not
the reason why I want to skip tomorrow. Despite of all the things that I’m
blessed with in life, tomorrow is just a huge reminder of what is not in my
life anymore. It is a missing feeling that leaves my heart aching so badly. I
just want to get over tomorrow and I don’t need anything to make the day
memorable.
I
understand that people around me want to do things to make me feel special and
I honestly appreciate it, but I just wished that they would actually listen and
hear me when I say that tomorrow is just like any other day. My big bro &
sis in Cape Town and my friends back home keep on trying, but I just wished that they would
let me be. It doesn’t matter where I would have been, July 12th 2012
is a date that I cannot wait to erase out of memory. The bright side of all this
is that at least I will be at my favourite spot in Cape Town tomorrow night. I
will be able to let the wind clear my thoughts and heavy heart.
So there you go… Enjoy your day and let us all look forward to Friday the 13th!
Love,
Bao-Nhi
